i will never sleep again, ill never even close my eyes

christmassss

2005-12-17T18:01:13Z

so, yesterday i got some early christmas gifts courtesy of shannon and evelyn, thanks again guys
i now own a shirt with a purple pug on it wearing a bandana and gold chain that says "pug life" in awesome gangsta lookin font hahahah, its awesome
i also have a semi-painful ear due to a tragus piercing that i have to hold a cup of salty water on twice a day, its quite interesting sticking your ear in a cup and soaking it, it certainly makes my ear feel better though

blehhhh

2005-12-16T12:07:58Z

i never post entries i know, but im basically doing this to give myself a break from my stupid essay that is driving me insane. it has to be done in less than 5 hours, that is by 9 am. i know i can do it i just dont want to have to do it. i only technically need 2 more pages, but i think i have a lot more left to write about. even after i finish the body of it i have to site my million references and write a crappy abstract. 5 hours is a long time, im surprised i can even function well right now. usually i have to sleep and then get up early in the morning, im working on no sleep yet and im not even really tired. i just want to finish this stupid essay, but i burn out quickly! once im done, im done done done done done with everything, im graduated, if i could just finish it fast fast fast

woah

2005-11-18T06:29:50Z

ok so evelyn and i went to see "just friends" cuz we got to see it for free through the school, and anyways, i was like wooh its free so ill just go cuz i can, and then we went and im still in shock, cuz it was seriously hilarious...i totally didnt expect anything from it, but i was laughing non stop...i was seriously laughing as hard as i did the first time i saw napoleon dynamite, which says a lot...so anyways, surprisingly, i would recommend the movie, although i never thougth for a second i would be saying that

amazing

2005-10-27T06:20:49Z

this picture amuses me, although its sad

cat asthma, who would've thought?

wow

2005-10-19T04:56:10Z

this is really me

im the same as evelyn

2005-10-17T05:09:13Z

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

im a manly woman, but i already coulda figured this

more yet again

2005-09-14T07:46:57Z

ok now i have the pictures of our itsy bitsy kitchen

that's a view from in the dining room

that's a view from in the living room sort of

that is the lovely, freshly cleaned stove

and that's the sink with all the clean dishes

i need to get some hooks to hang my potholders and put out some more towels, but i think pretty much the kitchen is done for decoration, not too thrilling, but its little ok!

batmans home today, he is depressed, he won't eat, and he's leaking everywhere from his tube inserted into his pee hole, it's sad, i have to shove pills down his throat and smear vitamin crap across his upper lip for him to lick off, he's going to hate me for a while :( and i think i have to take him to the vet tomorrow to find out how to force feed him *sigh*

againnn

2005-09-14T06:06:53Z

i was bored and did this thing again, with more people, its still not interesting

Click here.
Take the quiz.
Post your results.
1) How would spidermundo conquer the world? with the stuffed animals he took from my apartment
2) What do you disagree with yourbulletsfly about? i am not sure, but i could probably find at least one thing hah
3) Is yourbulletsfly popular? i think he is actually
4) Is ll0veemo a nerd? in the best way possible, yes
5) Thoughts on ll0veemo? she was my roomate and now shes not and she doesnt invite me over cuz she doesnt like me anymore :( just kidding, but she was my roomate
6) Do you think wundagrrl is hot? redddd hot
7) Did yourbulletsfly break up with you? ya, no he didnt, i didnt date him
8) Is ll0veemo related to you? not by blood
9) Are spidermundo and ll0veemo married? well they could be if shannon wasnt a lesbian and edmond hadnt dated evelyn, and if they also liked each other, but at this point they are not
10) What comic book character would spidermundo be? ummm, spiderman?
11) Are yourbulletsfly and ll0veemo going out? nah, i said it before, shannon likes the ladies
12) What would you do if you found out wundagrrl has a crush on you? i would be like uh woah, thanks but no thanks
13) What flavor of jello would yourbulletsfly be? a red one
14) What would spidermundo think of flying_buttress? he thinks shes pretty much the hottest thing on this planet haha, no just kidding, he thinks shes great
15) What is spidermundo's shoe size? ummm 10?
16) Would spidermundo and wundagrrl make a good couple? i dont think so, the distance would do them in even if they did
17) What would spidermundo do differently in your shoes? um, everything
18) Do you have flying_buttress's screenname? yes i sure do
19) How tall is yourbulletsfly? uhhh 5 9? i dont have a clue
20) Is flying_buttress friends with wundagrrl? no, they met, but no
21) What is spidermundo's favorite band/artist? uhhh i have no clueee
22) Is flying_buttress 1337? what the heck does that mean
23) Has ll0veemo been to your house/dorm? ya, she lived two doors away in the dorms and shared an apt with me after that and has visited my new one
24) Do ll0veemo and yourbulletsfly go to the same school? no definitely not
25) Does ll0veemo have a big secret? yes, but its kinda out
26) Would yourbulletsfly go out with spidermundo? uh not unless they both turned gay and met somewhere in the middle of california
27) If wundagrrl and spidermundo were siamese twins, where would they be joined? by their heads
28) What is spidermundo allergic to? uhhhh, dust?
29) If yourbulletsfly had a superpower, what would it be? he would run really fast? lame, i know
30) Which of your friends should wundagrrl go out with? hmm i dunno, ill have to find her one

moreeee

2005-09-13T13:11:36Z

so here are photos of the dining room....kitchen will come very soon, and the bedroom in the near future :)

that's the dining room as seen from the living area

and that shows off the lovely placemats and center piece :)

this final one is batmans lil corner with his food and own beautiful art with kitties in it...poor batty is in the hospital right now so he doesn't get to enjoy his picture :( today i am picking him up in the afternoon to bring him back, i misss him, and i hope he doesn't bleed anymore because the vet says if he starts bleeding again he could die! and i certainly don't want that!

on another note, i haven't slept yet even though its 6 11 am, because ya, im crazy, and i took a nap, and that jacked me up, and reading the virgin suicides, mainly the big suicide part, has jacked up my brain and made me not feel like shutting my eyes until its light outside and i somehow feel safer...oh yuckyyy

apartment

2005-09-13T06:05:25Z

so I'm putting up some pics of my apartment for people to see, yes, i know i moved in like 2 months ago haha, but here they are finally!

that's when you walk in, i know the body pillow is kinda funny but its comfy and ill cover it sometime

that's just the seating area

this is behind the loveseat, and the zebra pillows will also get covered sometime :P

these shelves need some more decor on them, but we're working on it, and bike hasss to gooo outside

here is the tv, thrilling haha, you can see the pile of crap we are donating off to the right, its usually by the front door but i moved it to vaccum :)

ok that's it, hope you loveee it, cuz i do, and i think evelyn does too heh

weird thingy

2005-08-31T09:04:31Z

Click here.
Take the quiz.
Post your results.
1) Does wundagrrl do drugs? i hope not
2) flying_buttress's hair color? black
3) If flying_buttress took over the world, who would suffer? definitely not plants or animals hah
4) Where would flying_buttress most like to visit? europe? hawaii? i dont know?
5) Would flying_buttress be a better ninja or pirate? ninja
6) Where was flying_buttress born? l.a.??? i dont know
7) If flying_buttress and ll0veemo were spliced together, what would be its name? shanalyn or evelon
8) What is wundagrrl's biggest flaw? ummm. i dont know
9) Does wundagrrl drink? sort of
10) What would you do if ll0veemo died? cry and steal her cats
11) What exotic animal would ll0veemo like as a pet? a deer, even though its not very exotic
12) Would flying_buttress and ll0veemo make a good couple? of course
13) Are ll0veemo and flying_buttress going steady? no
14) Are flying_buttress and ll0veemo married? they practically were, but not now
15) What animal should flying_buttress be combined with? a bird
16) How would ll0veemo conquer the world? in the most annoying way possible, whatever way that is
17) What flavor of jello would ll0veemo be? whatever the green kind is
18) Which of your friends should flying_buttress go out with? i dont know
19) Is flying_buttress related to wundagrrl? no way
20) Is flying_buttress popular? popular is for high school, no
21) What is ll0veemo's favorite band/artist? it was linkin park at one point
22) Where did you first meet wundagrrl? on a soccer team in elementary school
23) Would you set up ll0veemo and flying_buttress? no, they knew each other first
24) Where was ll0veemo born? l.a.??again i dont know
25) What song/movie would you recommend to wundagrrl? empire records, because i recommend it to everyone bwahaha
26) Thoughts on flying_buttress? she is my apartmentmate
27) What do you disagree with flying_buttress about? furniture and pictures hehe

yay

2005-08-28T08:14:27Z

tonight i got a milkshake, took forever, but its good...except that i cant suck the stupid thing up the straw, but ill give it time :)

tonight is the night

2005-08-27T08:01:08Z

i wanted a milkshake really bad, so i headed over to jack in the box. to start off with, i went to the wrong jack in the box, i went to the one further from my apartment. i went in the drive thru and it turned out they were out of shake mix. so, i backed up and out of the curvy drive thru, which was difficult, but i made it. on the way home, i realized my empty tank light was on. i had to get gas, but first i realized there was another jack in the box (the closer one) and felt stupid for having gone to the other one. i stopped at that jack in the box to check if they had milkshakes. unfortunately, their milkshake machine was turned off. so i was trying to leave, and a guy was on a motorcycle talkin to some other guy standing in the drive thru. if the standing guy would move i could drive thru next to the motorcycle and not have to wait. so i motioned for the guy to move, but he starts talkin to me cuz my window is left open from talkin to the drive thru lady. he asks if i want to ride his friends harley. i said no. he says i should and tells me not to drive by or ill run over his friend (jokingly). i said i wasnt going to and kept going. he told me he was going to have to call the cops (jokingly). oh, and i forgot to mention, these are fairly old guys, probably in their 40s or more, yuck. from there, i went to the gas station. at the gas station i had to get out of the car. usually getting out of the car isnt quite so much of a nightmare. however, i decided to go out in my pajamas. so, i get out at the gas station wearing pink flip flops, pink striped shorts (ugly ones), a gray tank top with no bra, messy hair from swimming, glasses, and no make-up. and of course i wasn't the only one at the gas station, because why would that happen? so ya, it was embarassing. now i am forced to eat flavored applesauce with no added sugar. not half as satisfying.

the sickest thing...

2005-08-24T10:06:02Z

...happened to me this morning
i had 10 minutes left before i left for school
and i stubbed my toe on something under the bed, a big plastic under-the-bed shoe holder
or at least i thought i just stubbed my toe...
i looked at it and it looked like id broken some of the nail off and had a lil blood
but then i looked closer....
and my poooooorrrrr toe
i ripped a fat chunk of skin off the very top of my pinky toe
actually, it was hangin on a little bit making a big flap of skin just hang off my toe
then it was bleeding a lot
and i didnt have time to apply pressure
so i put on two band-aids
and the blood leaked through both
and i hobbled off to school with my bandaged toe showing in my flip-flops
it looked like i had a splint on my toe, really ugly looking
and the gross dark spots on the band-aids of blood just added to the sickness
my toe still hurts
and it still looks ugly
i hope it fixes itself fast

of me, and the things i will never, ever be

2005-08-24T09:56:20Z

a slut, a whore, a ho

a stealer, a cheater, a liar

your drunken passenger or your designated driver

your clubbin buddy

your scapegoat

a friend that ISN'T there, or a person who doesn't care

your enemy

your supposed "superior"

your sidekick

inferior

a drunk, a pothead, a smoker

a moron, an idiot

a complete and total hypocrit

a quitter or a loser

a "cool kid"

a schmoozer

YOU

wow

2005-08-13T22:42:58Z

Braggart
You are 57% Rational, 71% Extroverted, 0% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

You are the Braggart! Like Muhammad Ali, you would surely tell everyone that you are "The Greatest" whilst bragging incessantly about your intelligence, your skills, and your abilities. You tend to be a thinker rather than a feeler, and combined with your extroversion and arrogance, this makes you someone who probably just LOVES to brag about his accomplishments. Despite this, however, you are a very gentle, tender person and truly care about others' feelings. You just happen to care more about yourself. Unlike Ali, of course, you are rather rational as opposed to emotional, and you are also much more gentle. But his arrogance and extroversion best reflect the most visible aspects of your personality. Your personality defect is the fact that you are extremely overconfident, extroverted, and perhaps rather lacking in emotions. YOU ARE THE GREATEST! Or so you keep telling yourself every night, in hopes that eventually everyone else on the planet will agree. Well, sorry, we probably won't.

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.

Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Bitch-Slap.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Hand-Raiser, the Haughty Intellectual, and the Capitalist Pig.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 63% on Rationality

You scored higher than 70% on Extroversion

You scored higher than 0% on Brutality

You scored higher than 65% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid

apparently i'm a total and complete jerk who thinks i'm awesome

i hope i'm not really that awful....

sucky

2005-07-31T10:11:08Z

well, me and donnie broke up today...i wish that he would go out and get things going in his life and take care of what he needs to take care of and then things could work for us....but he informed that he doesn't want to ever try dating again...which sucks...because we always talked about things and i thought it was understood that if this should happen he would do whatever he could to make it possible for us to work...thats what i wish he would do...i dont want to say bye to the relationship forever...i just cant do it in the situation it is right now because its causing me to become a mess, and if im a mess then the relationship cant work anyways....i dunno, i cant sleep, i feel crappy, confused, and pressured...

wow this is the first time ive written something meaningful in forever

lula13 @ 2005-06-18T13:19:00

2005-06-18T20:19:31Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Hedonism	\|\|	10%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Avoidant	\|\|	10%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Peter pan complex	\|\|	10%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	24%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|	16%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%

Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

well this was too much for me to look at at one time, so you look, and you comment...the only thing i noticed was 70% female cliche...and im thinking umm no

woah, no way

2005-05-19T07:07:29Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

this thing was TOTALLY wrong haha, except a couple, sad, its no fun when they are so awfully wrong :(
attracted to good manners and elegance? um maybe..not really
feel alive with a patient partner? ya, i guess
i want my lover to think im stylish? uh no, im not that stylish in my own opinion so if he doesnt think im stylish then thats fine
break up with someone insecure? eh, im dealing a little with that right now
want a lasting relationship? yes, that part was right on the money
0 risk of cheating? for sure, but not only because i dont want to break a commitment and because of society and morality but because i do not desire to be with anyone else
afraid of marriage and confinement? uh no, i would like to be settled
think of love as a commitment? uh, love itself is not a commitment, but along with loving someone i will commit to them and expect the same in return

so ya, not very correct, but cant really expect it to be, after all it asked me questions about animals... oh well

well well well

2005-03-10T05:41:18Z

apparently ive been supposed to be hookin up with my roomates all of my life, the love of my life and the best sex of my life are right in front of me and i havent taken advantage, what on earth was i thinking? maybe i was thinking i was straight...oh ya...actually i KNOW i am hahaha, sorry girls ahahaha

Love and Sex With Your Friends by dannygrl0129
Username
Sex
Favorite Color
Love of your life:	ll0veemo
Best sex of your life:	flying_buttress
Will make you come 1000 times:	wundagrrl
Will break your heart:	groovy_movies
Best Kisser:	stop_it_off
Best cuddler:	neversoyoung
You secretly dream of:	yourbulletsfly
But this person dreams of you:	awinterskiss
Will handcuff you and screw you silly:	poisntheprophet

Quiz created with MemeGen!

i stole it from evelyn and did it myself

2005-02-16T09:28:58Z

You scored as Geek.

</td>

Geek

50%

Drama nerd

44%

Loner

38%

Punk/Rebel

31%

Ghetto gangsta

31%

Goth

19%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

Stoner

What's Your High School Stereotype?
created with QuizFarm.com

seems about right :)

weird thingamajigger

2005-02-12T03:14:48Z

ATTN: Evelyn....apparently i secretly dream of you ahahahhaha, half the other people this thingy picked..i dont even know...oh well

Love and Sex With Your Friends by dannygrl0129
Username
Sex
Favorite Color
Love of your life:	stop_it_off
Best sex of your life:	ihatelwid
Will make you come 1000 times:	awinterskiss
Will break your heart:	poisntheprophet
Best Kisser:	yourbulletsfly
Best cuddler:	neversoyoung
You secretly dream of:	flying_buttress
But this person dreams of you:	ill_lay_waiting
Will handcuff you and screw you silly:	xsketchx

Quiz created with MemeGen!

what on earth

2005-01-22T18:11:30Z

ok i dont have anything cool to say, i just found one of those weird fill it out and find some sort of picture and answer things on evelyns livejournal, so i did it, and i was surprised with the result...for just one reason...


dredg is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

woot, its true, dredg is love, dredg is my love, dredg is freakin awesome

humdeedum

2004-02-16T21:39:21Z

LAYER ONE: The Basics

Name: Laura
Current Location: Vacaville
Eye Color: green and orange...which is hazel kinda sorta ;)
Hair Color: brown with black in the front and under in the back
Height: 5'2 and a lil bit :P
Zodiac Sign: aquarius

LAYER TWO: On The Inside

Your heritage: umm im a mut...german, english, welsh, french canadian i think...maybe some irish too, i have no idea what else is mixed in there...
Shoes you wore today: none yet
Your weakness: hmm this ones hard cuz i dont know which way its meant...i start to melt when guys kiss my neck though haha, i lose all control
Your fears: im scared of the dark...and the future...and um a lot of stuff, im a wuss
Goal you'd like to achieve: i wanna have a good paying job, a husband, and 2 or 3 kids some day...mmhmm mmhmm, and be happyyyy

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up: ew its 1
Your best physical feature: umm maybe my eyes? or maybe my ghetto booty? haha no not the booty, jk
Your bedtime: umm i dont have a bedtime...but last night i went to bed at almost 6 am, bad me
Your most missed memory: hanging out with my ex bf, when he was still being all sweet and shit...but im sure i wont miss that memory in a while...its just currently too fresh

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke: it depends on my mood, most of the time pepsi i think, but coke sounds goooodd right now
Single or group dates: gosh i think that would depend on the person
Adidas or Nike: oh god, no nike, adidas please
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: umm no preference
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla...if its ice cream...
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino, yum yum

LAYER FIVE: Do You?

Swear: yes, ive gotten really bad about it, i need to stop
Sing: yes, poorly, but all the time, mostly in my car ;)
Take a shower everyday: yes yes yes, i have to, or my hair would be disgusting
Think you've been in love: yes i think once
Like(d) high school: eh it was ok, im not going back though!
Get motion sickness: no, luckily
Think you're attractive: i dont think im hideous
Think you're a health freak: hahah umm no, i think it might be better if i was :P
Get along with your parents: eh we get along ok these days...but when im home in summer it goes back to being reallll badd
Like thunderstorms: not really, they scare me...if i can cuddle during em im ok though haha
Play an instrument: umm i used to play flute...and i can still kinda sorta play a lil of the piano

LAYER SIX: In the past month have you...

Made Out: sadly, no, its been like a month and a half..
Gone on a date: no...ive never really "dated"...just had bfs or whatever
Been led on: hmm no i dont think so
Been on stage: um no
Been dumped: nopeee i did the dumping, that ass
Gone skinny dipping: no, never in my life
Dyed your hair: no but shit i wanted to

LAYER SEVEN: Ever...

Played a game that required removal of clothing: i sure havnet
Been caught "doing something": "doing something" huh...i dont think ive ever been totally caught
Been called a tease: ya but not seriously
Gotten beaten up: nooooo
Shoplifted: definitely not

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older

Age you hope to be married: by 27, so my kids dont have an old old lady for a mom
Numbers and Names of Children: 2 or 3...eiffel, my son, and phoenix, hopefully my daughter, but could be a son ;)
Describe your dream wedding: gosh i dunno...i think i want it to be on the beach...no shoes...strapless 50s style poofy skirted dress that just goes past my knees...and probably not white...no priest, or whoever the hell, no religious shit
How do you want to die: in my bed cuz im old
What do you want to be when you grow up: im not totally positive yet...if psychology didnt take 200 years of schooling i would love to be a psychologist :P
What country would you most like to visit: i wanna go back to germany!

LAYER NINE: In a boy/ girl

Best eye color?: greennnnn
Best hair color?: brown or black
Short or long hair: not tooo short, not tooo long
Height: 6 feet or more, i like em tallll

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...

Number of people I could trust with my life: sheesh i dunno, and i dont feel like thinkin about that
Number of CDs that I own: i think 200, or almost that many, or maybe more...
Number of piercings: umm well if ears count i have 9, plus my lip...so 10 i guess
Number of tattoos: just 2 :)
Number of scars on my body: gosh thats hard..theyre not like huge and noticeable...but i think i have at least 3 that i could point out and people would then be able to see them
Number of things in my past that I regret: nothing right now, everything would be different now if i changed anything in the past, so i dont regret it

okkk

2004-02-10T03:17:14Z

so i havent written in this thing for forever...and i think maybe i should start...so whats new with me...well none of this will make sense since i never wrote anything about any of it before...but ill just start off with it and ya...itll work..somehow...so anywho, about a week ago i had to dump anthony for the 2nd time..which means weve broken up a total of 3 times, and im pretty damn sure this is the last time...i was stupid to go out with him for so long this time, i just wanted to believe he wouldnt always be an asshole, and he proved me wrong...he treated me like shit repeatedly and still believes its ok that hes just an asshole and he should have to change for no one, which is really frustrating...its hard to hear him tell me he still has feelings for me and all this shit when he then acts like it should be ok for him to be a jerk to me..its like if you care so fuckin much dont be an ass..treat me with respsect..treat me like you care...and he cant do that...and then hes already "seeing" some girl...he made out with her like a day after i dumped him...its like wtf...how are you gonna tell me you still have feelings for me and youre going off with some new chic already...but she isnt exactly new...i mean i guess they never did anything before...but he did hang out with her and stuff and supposedly she helped him out when i first dumped him...whatever...thats still ridiculous and mean and he doesnt get it...and since ive told him it makes me feel like shit that hes already with a new chic hes decided to constantly insist im seeing a new guy...which im not...he says stupid shit like "so did you hang out with your guy" and its like no dumb shit i dont have a guy, just cuz u are a fuckin whore and have a new girl to fuck around with already, although you told her you werent going out with her, doesnt mean im a fuckin whore too and im using some guy to make me feel better...anyways, so anthonys pissing me off, and im still mad at him, and still hurt by him, and i dont even know if i can ever hang out with him again, cuz despite all that bullshit im sure i would still like him, and ya, thats bad, im so stupid for that....and then at the same time i cant hang out with him cuz i think i would want to fuckin sock him in the head for being such a jerk...and one more reason i dont think i can hang out with him...if he cant stop being an asshole for me when im his gf, then why the fuck would he stop being an asshole to me when im his friend?? and do i want to risk finding out hes an asshole again? not really...cuz it fuckin sucks to deal with all his shit...and im sick of it, and that stupid new girl can...she fuckin woulda helped him cheat on me if he woulda gone for it...i dont know how he can see a girl who woulda done that...i dont think i could ever date a guy i know woulda helped me cheat on a current bf to get what he wanted...thats just wrong....anyways, so thats the news with that..

Other news...my birthday is this friday, im turning 19, go me...and im going home and gonna see people, but then at the same time it kinda sucks cuz my plans got screwed, i needddd to see 50 first dates on my bday cuz it has adam sandler and drew barrymore, just like the wedding singer, which also came out on my birthday a few years ago and i saw it, and ya then it was on tv a couple years in a row after and i saw it..so i have to see that damn movie! and i was supposed to go with anthony, and now i dunno wtf im gonna do...hopefully jeanette doesnt have to work and she can come out and go with me...and ya, my bday will be ok, cuz ill have things to do no matter what...but vday, thats fucked, i was supposed to go to sf and now im just gonna be a loner all day cuz alice and cassandra have bfs and jeanette probably has to work and ya, so i guess ill be stuck home...probably with my brother cuz i dont think he has a valentine this year either hahah...gee how thrilling...ya...and i need a haircut and to dye my hair and hopefully ill get that done at home...so thats about all the news i can think of right now....schools ok, people are good, except anthony, and ya...im done for now, this is a reallyyyy long entry, and hopefully ill continue to write some

Laura